as hard as it is to imagine, christmas is over, the year is winding down to a close, and what a year its been. definitely more downs than highs this year has been a challenge to get through. Usually Christmas is my high note, especially now that I have two-year old, but this year it was a mix of emotions, most i wasn’t ready to deal with. It was only when my darling girl was opening her presents, that the first wave a nausea hit me, this year there was no loving grandfather to help her open her loot, no grandfather to put together her toys, and play the games she wanted to play, to me it was lonely to her it was Santa’s moment. Six months six long months since he left us, and i still cant seem to say his name without tearing up. In the last six months i lost my well-mannered girl and watched her replaced by something else entirely.

a toddler who never sleeps, and when she does wakes up terrified screaming at the top of her lungs, because she’s afraid if she sleeps someone else she loves will go way. (remind me to thank the person who told her grandpa was sleeping)

a toddler who refuses to eat for long periods of time, resulting in weight loss, and mommy failure issues.

a toddler who cries intently for someone I cannot bring back thus making me cry.

a toddler who I love dearly but cannot help alone. (thus weekly toddler therapy)

among those things 2010 has been the year for diagnosis, for my schizo affective husband, who I am trying so hard to understand his illness, I find myself at times short-tempered, and resentful. Hopefully 2011 brings some understanding and some new help. (starting with a new therapist today, and the realization that it wasnt always like this, there were although sometimes it seems too few good times. they were there.)

Resolutions Things I’d Like to see in 2011

a happier healthier toddler, both physically and emotionally.

a career path.

a happier and healthier husband and father both physically and emotionally.

a better blogger.

weight loss. (you know it had to be there, get off the computer and onto the treadmill!)

read 111 in 11 (because goals are good)

Write more, if I don’t write I can’t get published.

More knitting and crocheting complete at least 50 projects.



Let me just say that any cookie that uses alcohol, could be considered a winner in my book! I don’t drink that much at all but i can eat my share of alcohol all day long! Ok i was a little skeptical of any thing with fruitcake in the title. I’ve never actually had fruitcake but lets just say horror stories made me weary.

They look good right, ok Her photos are better but They taste phenominal!

Get the Recipie Here: Pioneer Woman’s Fruitcake Cookies

Ask anyone who knows me and they would say that i am obsessed with Mini Knitted Mittens, i love the look of them, i love to knit them I think they are so stinking cute I just can’t help myself.

The tree they are hanging on now was my Great Grandmothers and has seen a few better days, I have been thinking about replacing it but have never gotten around to it.

One of my Favorite things around this time of year  are Snowmen, they are just so cute and fluffy and hrm i’m rambling.

I stitched this little guy up and just thought he was so damn cute! I found him in the book:

I like most of the world purchase several cookbooks through out the year, however i rarley ever crack the binding, they have been collecting dust beside the sparklers from two years ago on the bookshelf. That was however until this one crossed my doorstep thanks to the shipping elves of Amazon.Com. I had made a few things off her website, but nothing prepared me for the pure awesomness of her cookbook.

I have had this only a few days and have already made several recipies, not to mention the few that i have used for Thanksgiving dinner last month. I think the most appealing thing about this book is that the recipies are actually food that I grew up on, food my dad made regulary and have missed since he passed.

What is this book you ask

(Photo From Amazon.com)

In addition to the recipies in here you will find so much more on her website The Pioneer Woman. Psst all you holiday cooks and bakers, she has entire sections devoted to sweets, and holiday dishes.  ENJOY!

This is an Awesome Sugar Cookie Recipie That i dug out of my Mother’s Neverending Recipie Chest:


Sift together into bowl and reserve:

2 3/4 Sifted all-purpose flour

1 tsp  Baking Powder

1/2 tsp. Salt



3/4 cup soft (not runny) Butter in large bowl



1 cup Sugar

2 Eggs

1 tsp Vanilla extract


1. Beat with mixer or wooden spoon until mixture is light and fluffy

2. Beat in flour mixture with mixer or spoon blending until smooth

3. Chill 1 Hour or until firm

4. roll a small amout of dough  at a time on floured board to 1/8 inch thickness.  Keep remaining dough in refrigerator until ready to use.

5. Cut into desired shapes with cookie cutters.

6. Put on Greased cookie sheets and bake in a 375 Degree preheated oven for 8 to 10 min.

7. Let Cool before decorating!

BTW Toddlers are sneaky!





Embordery Hoop Snow Man

Advent Calendar

Glitter Ornaments

Photo Ornaments


Decorative “Snow Ball” Men